(I pinched this picture from Google images).
Thank God for tissues with balsam or aloe vera in them.
My mum went home a couple of hours ago and I didn't even manage to get the door fully closed before I started crying. I just shut it enough so that she couldn't see me crying (I didn't want to upset her, she didn't want to leave as it was) and fell into James's arms sobbing.
She did everything for me. She even watered my plants. She got up this morning, washed all the bedding she'd been using and hung it up to dry before I even got up. She brought me a cuppa in bed this morning because she knew it was her last chance.
If I asked her to do something, she'd either do it straight away or keep it in mind and do it a few minutes later. Because James has always got his head in the pc with his headphones on I have to ask him to do something several times and usually end up doing it myself anyway when 2 hours later I'm still waiting.
When he is in the present (and not off killing trolls in some fabled land) he's very good. He helped me in and out of the shower this morning and dried my legs and all my toes individually. Bless!
I feel so miserable I just can't stop crying. I'm a veritable snot factory.
I've made up two playlists on Spotify. One is called 'Smash Shit Up' and is full of Devildriver, Slipknot, Slayer and all that ilk, and the other is called 'Songs To Cry To' and is full of soppy crap which makes me want to bawl. I hope they help, since I can't jump up and down on things.
AWW Bless ya hon,i bet your mum knows exactly what you were doing ,and is probably doing the same.
ReplyDeleteJAMES !!!! you keep up the good work and look after our Leah,she is very special to alot of peeps ok? xx
Thanks Elaine.
ReplyDeleteHe's doing a great job. We're going to watch a comedy together soon :) x x x
You would be a lady of stone if you werent upset at your mum leaving. You have a lovely relationship. As much as I love my mum, I wish I were as close to her as you are to yours. Completely open and real with one another.
ReplyDeleteIts a testament to you both that youre both so upset.
Could you perhaps get James to take you to see her a little more often for something to look forward to?
xxx
Awww thanks hon :)
ReplyDeleteI've got a whole new respect for my mum now after seeing how hard she worked here. One of the last things she did was prune my African Violet plant as all the flowers had died off. Thoughtful to the last :)
We get on so well we're more like best mates than mother and daughter.
Yes, I will suggest it to James :) x x x