I can't sleep.
Every time I lay down I can feel snot rising up my throat choking me. My throat is so sore (quite possibly from clearing it every 10 seconds) that it feels like I've gargled with razor blades. My tits feel like monkeys have been using them as a play park for the last week. They are so sore. I'm going to have to start wearing a bra in bed as every time I turn over I feel like sandpaper is being rubbed over my nipples. You could fry eggs on my tits, they're that hot, and my nipples would sizzle if I licked my fingers, I swear!! :) It's all part of the rich tapestry of pregnancy :D
I've been laying in bed trying (and failing) to get comfortable for 2 hours and have given up. There's only so much staring at the ceiling I can do. It's not like I can read in bed with James next to me. I can't even have the hall light on to navigate my way to the bedroom when I go to bed. His eyes are so sensitive to light we can't even use a night light to light the hall, even that piddly amount of light will wake him up. So if I'm really restless, there's no point staying in bed slowly going insane with boredom.
I have to wonder how the hell I'm going to cope with later pregnancy when I'm the size of a house and my tits are like the Hindenburgh in duplicate. I can only hope our new bed is more comfortable than the mattress on the floor we've been sleeping on for the last 8 months. Our old bed was SO uncomfortable (and bent up in the process of moving) that James could never face putting the bloody thing together again.
Our new bed comes on Friday and I hope (pray) it's comfortable.
I'm sipping a honey and lemon drink and hoping I feel better soon. If I don't feel sleepy soon I may have to bash myself over the head with the nearest heavy thing, which appears to be a box of Quality Street. What a way to go - death by chocolate!
At least my sense of humour is still functioning - it may be the only bit that is :)
Well, death by chocolate does sound like fun...
ReplyDeleteI'm like James in that I cant sleep with any lights on however I can see perfectly well in the dark and disco-dancing brain does function at times even when i cant see or know where i am (re: when I'm at my dads etc)
As daft as it may sound... Meditation may just be your answer, I know even if i'm not sleeping for days on end I'm resting and relaxing I know I can slow my heart rate down and rest my body.
I have a resting heartrate of about 58-62 bpm for someone of my weight and who smokes 20 a day is bloody amazing really... ;p
also green tea. get used to it and drink lots of it... pure vits in and gunk out city. :)
I neglected to mention I can't see to read in the bedroom unless I have Gatwick's landing lights blaring in my face, so he'd have to be dead to sleep through that :)
ReplyDeleteKudos to anyone who can clear their mind to meditate. I've tried before, and the never-ending stream of thoughts just plugs on regardless. I'm just as well to get up when I can't get comfortable and read up on pregnancy and make plans for the future.
Your heart rate is impressive :) Because I'm anaemic (at least, I'm pretty damn sure I am) all I hear when I try to sleep is my heart thundering 99 to the dozen.
It's also virtually impossible to get to sleep in our bedroom if you're the tiniest bit restless as the radiator is so annoying. I think it must want bleeding or something, as at hourly intervals or less it sounds like HHH is trying to burst his way out of there armed with a steel pipe. It wouldn't be so bad if the knocking was to some gentle calypso melody, but it's more at a pace akin to fucking gabba.
Now the cold has turned into a full blown chest infection with the usual clearing of snot every 2 minutes I'm feeling as enthusiastic as a knackered horse going to the glue factory.
The end result WILL be worth all this bollocks!
I know its sod all comfort hun, but everything you described (apart from the horrid bug) are normal pregnancy things. The inability to sleep or get comfy is a classic one, unfortunately the last few months for this are hellish (that may be becuse of my SPD in my case so maybe you'll sleep better as you get tireder in later pregnancy). The hot boobs are classic too. Mine were burning. I also developed a constant red rash on mine which was really worrying. I showed it to 3 different doctors, none of whom knew what it was. It disappeared in later pregnancy so I can only assume it was a heat rash.
ReplyDeleteThe elevated heart rate is another thing you'll experience and is normal. You will hear it thunder in your ears like nobodies business. It is kind of oddly comforting to know youre not going mad and the things you experience are normal.
Im right there with you on the inability to meditate. I've tried as well. There are just too many bloody thoughts whizzing through there that won't allow me to clear my head.
As you say though, it will be worth it, hard as it is at the time. Its an incredible journey that your body embarks on. Youre halfway through the first trimester remember, so hopefully in a few short weeks you'll start to feel much better. x
I'm going to get one of those V shaped pillows as my brother's girlfriend said it was a life saver when she was pregnant. I think I'm also going to get some firm control non-underwired bras to wear in bed to keep the Zeppelins under control.
ReplyDeleteAt least I know it's all normal (apart from the lurg). As well as my boobs being on fire, my whole body is roasting hot, but then there IS a lot going on in there :) I wish James and I could have single beds for the duration as I'm always kicking the covers off and he's always chucking them back my way :/ I've gotta laugh :) He's been much more helpful the last few days, which is one good thing!
The last couple of days I've felt more crap than pregnant, so it's important I remind myself I AM pregnant and it all WILL be worthwhile :) x x x